Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches
It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition often start with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.
About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical healing texts propose unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only officially recognised by international medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.
In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.
A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode eased.
National guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.
But leading neurologists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The national guidelines need updating to reflect a